You ever think you've got everything under control, and then something happens and you realize you really have no control over what's going on? Welcome to my world.
C28 opening weekend was awesome. People were packed in the store, excited. There were some people we saw two or three times in a two day period because they were coming back with their friends. We were literally a light in a dark world. And with God that is a great place to be.
Then came the end of the weekend, and we opened on Monday to what could be compared to a barren wasteland. It was REAL SLOW. And since my emotions go up and down worse than a roller coaster, I immediately paniced. I've been walking in faith on this C28 thing that God was leading me to the "If you build it, they will come" mentality, and early this week was painful because NO ONE CAME! Crises of faith hit people because of big things... Death of family, disease, etc. I know it sounds crazy, but my crisis came on Monday when sales were low.
Just like the Israellites, I was wandering the desert...forgetting what God had done to get me out of captivity, questioning whether or not He was still going to provide...whining about how we can't survive at this level...crying about not enough manna hitting the proverbial cash drawers.
I'm having lunch Wednesday with a Youth for Christ guy up here in West Palm, when it hit me. Jeff, God allowed you to build this incredible kingdom-impact opportunity. He did it in such a way that you know it is Him. He brought you incredible employees. And now that He's built it, you're going to question His ability to control the situation? Why don't you go wander the desert for 40 years!
When this hit me, I literally started tearing up @ lunch with a guy I just met. It was comical. More than that, I apologized to God for questioning him. It's amazing how easy it is to have faith when your moving in a direction you want to go... after all "I'm following God." But when He stops is another story.
God, help me not to forget what you've done. And help me to continually trust that you are completely in control, especially when things are not going as expected.